how my new life began

hello

i've had a very interesting few months. i've been learning a new set of skills. i'm really harnessing the true goodness in the world. health. on this journey into the mind, body and soul i've come across negative and positive energy. emotions. realizations. observations.

as i sit filling my ipod i feel everything in my body. the aches ache because i welcomed the pain. i've been learning acupressure massage. personally i have been to many treatments myself and they have changed my life. especially the tummy work called chi nei tsang. its a type of massage for the vital organs. i didn't know at the time of my first massage that i'm holding all my negative thoughts and feelings in my organs. or rather my organs are troubled by situations in life. my lungs, my heart, just like me. turns out our pipes in our body that feed our organs life, get plugged up with gunk, just like the pipes in your house. the organs suffer from not only this but that sad feeling i felt that i never really dealt with when i was 7. learning how to snowboard and falling on my ass for years and years. then to find out, these feelings and light injuries have been affecting my body this whole time. giving me pain, which turns to frustration and anger, depression and fear. all needing to be flushed and digested.

my body like most other peoples are compensating for un-digested emotions and injuries. have you ever stubbed your toe and bitten your lip so as to not scream. our body feels things like that everyday. but we dont notice. my body told itself to deal with it because i'm clearly not going to be able to fix it the way i go about things.

so what have i been doing? well. i've been practicing chi kung and many other healing activities not only to help myself but to maybe find a way to perfect my inner health and inner smile.

how many people have ever smiled at their liver? or stomach? how many people have taken deep breaths into their sides?

i want you to imagine a smiling face of someone you love. now smile back at them. smile into yourself. close your eyes and try it after this. smile into yourself. smile into your belly. smile into your kidneys. breathe into your belly and activate your diaphragm pushing your belly and tummy out. now smile into your heart. relax and breathe. smiling. smiling into yourself...go for it.