South of the border Willie Nelsons way

Puppies puppies puppies.

I'm surrounded by puppies in need of homes.

I was meant to fly out of town the other day. But apparently I made plans on the wrong day...so i'm stranded...kind of but not really. there i was standing with my huge backpack, surrounded by people speaking another language. Only understanding one out of 100 words. maybe. Thoughts came into my head and I was able to decipher which one made the most sense. So I walked out of the airport and over toward the cabs. Now getting a cab from the airport is always more expensive. but I only had 40$.

"Where you going?" the lady with the walkie talkie asked.
"Sayulita."
"For you its about 800 pesos."
I reached into my pocket, knowing full well that I wasn't prepared for staying any longer and I only had 400p. "I only have 400 pesos."
The woman gave me a bit of a face. "We could do maybe 600 - 700p."
Clearly she didn't understand what I was saying when I said it the first time. "I only have 400 pesos."
After some time she put the walkie talkie to her mouth and began to talk in spanish. She then nodded to me and flagged down a cabbie. My backpack was lifted into the back of the cab and there I was. On my way to this little surf town an hour or less away. Sweet.

Apparently $40 is unheard of even with the regular off airport cabs...unless you take the bus. But never being to Sayulita...i'm not about to try an navigate the bus. Especially when I have no idea where I'm going or what I'm going to do when I get there.

I could have gone back to the town just south of PV where I spent two weeks already. Or I could have gone to my friends house in PV where I had stayed the night before. But no. I wanted Sayulita. and I got it.

When I arrived I had no idea what to expect nor did i know where I was going. All i knew was that I knew people in this town and I hoped that I could find one of them...somehow. Eventually. after walking around in circles with a giant backpack on, i found someone. A nice man that whom goes by the name of Captain, pointed me in the direction of the local coffee shop/wifi hub.

Now i'm in sayulita...for how long? i dont know? I have some work down here in april. So I can either stay? or go home? or go to LA. I was supposed to go to la on the day i was leaving. but clearly it wasn't meant to be. I'm just going with the flow. Follow your heart, follow the thing that guides you and you will find what you are looking for. I'm trying not to think about it too much. Yes i'm broke...but i'll figure it out.

My friends are fostering animals here in sayulita. Which you should check out. www.sayulitaanimals.com

ok. Time to go.

steak was $3...its going to feed three people...i'm cooking it now...bye

Living

I lay in bed and think of things. Wondering where the world begins. Where life will lead if we let it fall. The world is a place I am discovering with myself above all.

I sleep well and dream big. A switch flipped inside me that I will not deny. As its allowed me the freedom to fly. I do not attach to the things so still. Forever flowing is where ill be. Ups and downs and all around me, are people that love me. For who I am. Each toenail, each smile line, each piece of grey hair...each light in my eyes. A love I am sharing with many as I travel I've found new friends that will have a long life inside my heart.

My journey is not over. I've decided some things. Going some places. Can't wait to see the places I want to see and the people I want to see.

A love

There is a love inside me so strong that I feel the need to cry. I feel the need to cry because my heart aches.

Life is forever changing and I lost a part of myself. Not for anyone but myself. I'm on this journey. Learning again and again the ways in which we use the people around us and the things inside of us to lose ourselves. We use people, drugs, sex, fear...as ways to avoid the truth.

I've been dragging my feet. Making sure to not do anything I've wanted to do. Now there is no foot dragging. No dragons on my feet. No foot dragons.

My life this past year was a wonderful gift. One that taught me a lot. One that now I have to learn from. I do have regrets. But I can't think about them. I would be somewhere else. I know that much. But would I be any less full because of it? No. Maybe less open.

I am in another country. For how long I don't know? Will I go home? I don't know. Everything is an I don't know. I lost something and I need to find it again. I am on that journey to search for meaning.

Today I am happy.