Dearest Linda,
Its been so long. I haven't been able to breathe or pick up a pen. I miss the days where I could walk outside and stand tall. I miss the days when my heart was beating at a regular pace. I'm sorry I haven't written you back.
I'm still here. I'm still alive. Barely.
Please do not stop writing your letters. I need them. One day I'll get up. One day soon.
Bisou,
Lilou
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Life Has Taken its Turn for the Worst. Now its my time to turn it back
Hello
Its been a while. What can I say. I was involved in a love that took all of me and I never snapped out of it. Seems i'm still struggling to snap out of it.
I'm not really sure how. Although I'm doing it everyday. It seems to be a lot easier for the other person. Thats ok. Like seems to work like that too. Its always a one sided thing after a certain point. But the thing that sucks the most. Is having to still see and work with this person when they're completely involved with someone else. I feel like i've failed at life. I feel like i'm not worthy.
But this isn't true. Why is it that with love we tend to hurt ourselves when someone isn't strong enough to stick around. I mean. I was strong enough to stick around and be loved and keep my love giving. So that right there is a gift that I have. To know deep down that I'm going to be letting go of this person for longer than them. and Knowing that I may never be able to let them go is the thing that scares me the most.
This is why i'm back to blog writing. I need to know that the words can come out of my head when I need them. I'm a writer and maybe not the best blog writer. But i still need to practice. Writing with a purpose is always harder for me than i can express. Give me a topic...oh man. but let me make my own topics. I've got it!!!.
So Here I am. Back. Expressing. Writing. Again. I'm not sure where i'm going with this anymore. But i'll be sure to let you know. Recently i sold one of my stories for movie rights. So i'm trying to practice a little more so i can dial my other stories and get my mind away from dwelling on a silly love that no longer exists. Silly silly love. Yes i'm still mad. Super mad! but ok.
Thanks for reading. I'm not sure you really are anyways. So have a great day. I can't wait to see what is out there.
Love
Its been a while. What can I say. I was involved in a love that took all of me and I never snapped out of it. Seems i'm still struggling to snap out of it.
I'm not really sure how. Although I'm doing it everyday. It seems to be a lot easier for the other person. Thats ok. Like seems to work like that too. Its always a one sided thing after a certain point. But the thing that sucks the most. Is having to still see and work with this person when they're completely involved with someone else. I feel like i've failed at life. I feel like i'm not worthy.
But this isn't true. Why is it that with love we tend to hurt ourselves when someone isn't strong enough to stick around. I mean. I was strong enough to stick around and be loved and keep my love giving. So that right there is a gift that I have. To know deep down that I'm going to be letting go of this person for longer than them. and Knowing that I may never be able to let them go is the thing that scares me the most.
This is why i'm back to blog writing. I need to know that the words can come out of my head when I need them. I'm a writer and maybe not the best blog writer. But i still need to practice. Writing with a purpose is always harder for me than i can express. Give me a topic...oh man. but let me make my own topics. I've got it!!!.
So Here I am. Back. Expressing. Writing. Again. I'm not sure where i'm going with this anymore. But i'll be sure to let you know. Recently i sold one of my stories for movie rights. So i'm trying to practice a little more so i can dial my other stories and get my mind away from dwelling on a silly love that no longer exists. Silly silly love. Yes i'm still mad. Super mad! but ok.
Thanks for reading. I'm not sure you really are anyways. So have a great day. I can't wait to see what is out there.
Love
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