Life Has Taken its Turn for the Worst. Now its my time to turn it back

Hello

Its been a while. What can I say. I was involved in a love that took all of me and I never snapped out of it. Seems i'm still struggling to snap out of it.

I'm not really sure how. Although I'm doing it everyday. It seems to be a lot easier for the other person. Thats ok. Like seems to work like that too. Its always a one sided thing after a certain point. But the thing that sucks the most. Is having to still see and work with this person when they're completely involved with someone else. I feel like i've failed at life. I feel like i'm not worthy.

But this isn't true. Why is it that with love we tend to hurt ourselves when someone isn't strong enough to stick around. I mean. I was strong enough to stick around and be loved and keep my love giving. So that right there is a gift that I have. To know deep down that I'm going to be letting go of this person for longer than them. and Knowing that I may never be able to let them go is the thing that scares me the most.

This is why i'm back to blog writing. I need to know that the words can come out of my head when I need them. I'm a writer and maybe not the best blog writer. But i still need to practice. Writing with a purpose is always harder for me than i can express. Give me a topic...oh man. but let me make my own topics. I've got it!!!.

So Here I am. Back. Expressing. Writing. Again. I'm not sure where i'm going with this anymore. But i'll be sure to let you know. Recently i sold one of my stories for movie rights. So i'm trying to practice a little more so i can dial my other stories and get my mind away from dwelling on a silly love that no longer exists. Silly silly love. Yes i'm still mad. Super mad! but ok.

Thanks for reading. I'm not sure you really are anyways. So have a great day. I can't wait to see what is out there.

Love